Sunday, February 21, 2010
A boring CYN
21 Feb 2010,What a boring and lonely Chinese New Year..This year CYN is 180 different from last year. This year most of my cousins suddenly brought along their boyfriends and girlfriends for visiting. Seeing them made me remember the happy moments of last year CYN..haiz...this year i will be celebrating alone..Hope next year will be better and i wont be lonely again.....
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Oct 20,
Christmas is coming!!! so is HELLDAY!!! This christmas i think i have spent quite a big sum on presents and other stuff to help and bring smile to ppl around me. When i will be happy when i can see them happy and smiling. This i have been thinking alot. Findind ways to improve myself and things i should try since i am single. Single maybe "freedom" but sometimes you just need someone outside of your family to talk about stuff but wont turn you to deaf ear, it is hard. Someone to hold on when feeling lonely and down. Hope to find the person one day.......
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Oct 6,
Will be booking in today..it will be another though week again. During last week, my cabin buddies and i got the chance to sit down and chit chat abt life. We talk about how are we gonna survived hell week, wat motivation will we have to pull through the week. What i was surprised was most of them have the same thought as me. We all thinks that having having someone that you care and love very much is the best motivation bcos during our hammering and suffering sessions, the image of their faces and think abt them always the onli way to pull us through. One of my instructor told us when going through NDU, we will always be push to the limit. The human body will always run through 3 stages when push through the limit. First our physical (muscles) how much strength in yr muscles that can push you. After your physical fail, it will be yr mind. Your mind will start to numb your body and push you. If both physical and mind fail, it will be our body last hope and also the strongest one. It will then be your heart. Your heart will always keep showing you the reasons and who will be waiting for you when everything have done. With all that men can do the unthinkable and survived.
So i really have no idea how to survive my hell week, but there are still some feeling and thought of you in my heart. Hope if you wont be angry if i just used that to pull through my hell week.....
Sunday, November 29, 2009
29 Nov,
Wow time passes really fast. Its already going to the end of the year. Its sun already, going back to camp liao...This coming weeks will be really though...more hammering and suffering...
Hahaha Wats great about today is i am able to learn to play MAJONG!! its confusing at the beginning but in the end i got the pace....Got to learn from the pros thx to Larry, Eugene and Michelle. But i still need more practice hehe..we played over night and we are not even shagged onli hungry hahaha...hope to have more sessions like this...
Happy to see her smiling and enjoying herself. But i not so sure the thing she is playing with its okie. Just be careful, hope u will not get burn....
Friday, November 20, 2009
Oct 19,
POP lo!!! haha Finally. But the ceremony is not just marching and receive our beret, its a whole lot of culture shock..its a long period of hammering. If u eager to find out wat is it, go try to go through NDU BMT haha.....Btw my life is getting better and i start to see the life in a better way. I decided to carry on with my life and i stop think about other past stuff. Its time to upgrade myself and make turn myself into a better person. Will try to obtain as must skills as I can during this years in army. By earning the pride and honor, I will then be a man. So ya, I promise to change into a stronger and better Alex compared to now...
("Fated to Suffer, Willing to Endure, Pride to Glory") HoooYA!!!!!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Nov 14,
Just got back from confinement. Its a shit week for me, bad things keep coming first was batchboys caught smoking, then peeing at the grinder and then tornado plus constant hammering finally confinement on sat...From 2nd Oct, my life is in the mess...dont know why this keep happpening to me. Why me? Why must i suffer all this things. But at least half of the suffering is over for me. Now hopping to find my one true love. The one that really cares about me and do things for me from her heart, someone that love me more then i love her. Where is she? When can i meet her? Time will tell......let destiny bring us together...
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Oct 8,
The world is going nuts this few months. Things around me are in the mess. I think i really need a rest from this mess. I have to start forgetting and letting go alot of unecessary worries. I should start doing things for myself and prepared myself for the future. The future that i will build for the person that truly cares and love me for wat i am....
